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i'm making a new xanga.

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Currently Listening Cheap Trick Kinda Girl//Paris to Berlin By Infernal see related

supEASTER.

Yeahhh boy.

It's Easter. Fun stuff.

This weekend has kind of become a bummer. I was expecting to get my hair colored. It never happened. I wanted to go shopping for a new outfit to wear for Easter when people come over. It didn't happen.

Not to mention my mom and I are like fightingxcore. It's irritating. Sometimes she can be quite ignorant and hurtful too. Like tonight she said that she doesn't know me anymore and that she can't talk to me without me getting angry.

I admit that I'm angry a lot but does anyone ever stop and think about why I'm that way? No. Of course not. So how does that make me look? Like I'm constantly on my rag and nothing else is wrong.

The fact of the matter is, a lot of things have happened to me in the past 3 years. &Quite frankly, I'm not fucking over them yet. My life has changed so much and in such a short amount of time. Much more than I wanted it to. I'm having such a hard time adjusting to it all. My mom simply responded to this by saying: "Well, thats no reason to treat everyone else like shit."

WTF. Does she not see how everyone else acts? She must have some kind of like...Rens-Being-An-Asshole Radar. How else could it always be all my fault when I'm fighting with someone? Ugh.

Well, I'm done with this entry. I'm off to look for a new lyt&song.

pce.

Currently Listening I Brought You My Bullets You Brought Me Your Love By My Chemical Romance see related

so long and goodnight.

As usual, I started to feel like things were going good.

So, life had to throw something at me and smack me right in the face.

I hate being in a bad situation that I can't do anything about. I'm seriously at a loss. I'm so confused and it feels like nothing good can come from this mess that I've gotten myself into.

Yeah, thats right. I'm bitching about something thats all my fault. Well, I feel that it's my fault. I'm starting to notice how dangerous it is to care about people. How irritating it is when you worry about people getting hurt. Even if they're just friends. It's annoying.

Part of me is saying: "Stop complaining so much. You're still friends after all! Not to mention you've got other friends who care about you. Just forget about everything thats happened between the two of you."

Then there's the other part of me thats saying: "You know whats coming, Ren. You knew that this was going to happen. Every single time you have a friend that you care about around, something fucks it up. You should just end it now and save yourself the trouble."

I don't know what I should do. I'm not giving up yet though. We'll see where the next few days take me. But for now, it doesn't look good.

Currently Watching Rogue Trader see related

damnit slkdghgjklsh.

So, how about this. I just got up?

Yeah. I know. But like, my head has been hurting since about 8pm last night. It sucked.

I actually thought about going back to school, yet again. I think I just miss my friends. In fact, I know thats what it is. I haven't seen most of them in 2 weeks. I saw Ashley over the weekend which was cool. But still. Ugh.

I think I might go on Wednesday since I'm going to get my medical release anyway. I don't know. I don't wanna say for sure and then not get to go and piss people off.

Anyways. I'm sitting in a BuddyProfile chatroom. People are actually kinda cool today. Some of them are idiots but thats how it goes?

Well, uhm. I think thats about it for now.

Kthnxbye.

Currently Watching Down with Love (Full Screen Edition) see related

cute.

K, so. I'm like...really bored.

+ I noticed that I haven't updated since Friday so, here I am.

Friday&Saturday = amazing. I had so much fun at the mall and stuff.

Today is sucking though. So much fighting and stuff. Everyone is all "OMGWTFPMS." today. It's friggin annoying. And after the fighting stops for a few minutes...my mom will try to come into my room and wake me up to just "talk".

I'm just like: "MOM. STFU. I'M SLEEPING. KTHNXFUCKINGBYE."

Now, of course that gets me into trouble. How the hell is that fair that I get in trouble because of her not being able to get along with people her own age who get out of bed before me?! Ugh.

Anyways, I'm watching Down With Love right now. This movie = fucking amazing. It always cheers me up. So, yeah. That's it for now.

Kbye.